Lost Forever World

by ASTHAROTH

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Collection of all American demos recorded by Astharoth in San Francisco Bay Area, after the bands guitar team moved from Poland. Unlike the bonus tracks on Gloomy Experiments, this compilation also features the unreleased track "House Of Frustration".

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released January 1, 2006

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Track Name: Wisdom Of The Blind
WISDOM OF THE BLIND

Perfect word had been sai
And became a crippled flesh
Hateful creation of willingness
Unconfined choices we may take
Perfection betrayed by shallowness
Left with endless craving for unknown
Defend me from myself
I'm crucified to this reality
By your omnipotent sight

No door in empty space
No escape from myself

Counciousness figure of yours
Turned into instinct of self extinction
As much as I want to know you
I feed the evil of my own creation
Dropped into the depths of infinity
Or on the edge of hollowness
Trying to challenge what's been forseen
Forming new me on my own
I'm trapped within myself

In the universe of my persistence
I meet all true faces of myself
Images hiding their wicked egos
In circle of errors only victim is me
Chased by sickness of that wisdom
On the edge ther's still no ascape
Blessed is innocent rest of the fools
When to know is the biggest mistake

Take my fear, take my fear, take my fear away!
Track Name: Misplaced Senses
MISPLACED SENSES

From the depth of fears you're watching
Yourself getting older
In the mirror of wasted time
These ficticious faces used to become
Someone else
Forsaken with the veil of lies
Deceitful and envious, runnig out
From the past
Into your world, created in mind

Sorrounded by fiction
Lonliness is your sickness
What you've become is your fault
Obsession of being a genious

Making up the stories to amaze other people
You've lost control of what's real
Delusive lies to stop them for a while
Before they go, befor they forget
What you hate the most
Is when they laugh at you
Those insincere people, who don't understand

Haunted by misleading illusion
You don't want to hear the truth
Progression in selfish conclusion
That no one is smart but you

Sorrounded by fiction
Lonliness is your sickness
What you've become is your fault
Obsession of being a genious

Searching for perfection
You didn't find yourself
You forgot yourself looking for a quick fame
Tired of it all you feel so lonely
Someone else is guilty, someone else is to blame
Insane of solitude, alone cause insane
You'll run away, always run away

Sorrounded by fiction
Lonliness is your sickness
What you've become is your fault
Obsession of being a genious
Track Name: Nameless
NAMELESS

In my endless dream
Sized - I fly away, forever?
You've made up your mind
Someone's cut my time, so easy

People's faces bothered
Tired, brainless, sick
I'm watchin
Almost next to your
But so far away
Concious
Unborn though, victim of sorrow

Drift away - faceless
To the world of nameless
Punished or chosen
By the hand of silence

Abandoned
I was never taught to cry
Listless
I can see the lies
Marked in your depth
Shadows
Mistery of being
Uncomplete sequences - mistaken
Away from pain
From bleeding sight of crave
I'm saved
From slow death who unwanted

Drift away - faceless
To the world of nameless
Punished or chosen
By the hand of silence

Who's nullyfied
Untouched by sin
Has turned his time
Into infinity

Silence's pain
Seems to have no end, no begining
Is there other death to overcome
Can I try again
Or I've lost my chance for life
For boring, brutal, common existance
Why I want to try
Wait whole life to die
In real
Fate's erased
I drift away unknown
Everything's over
Before it begun
Track Name: Limits
LIMITS

Scars of memories
Those voices, never ending
Fears from back behind
Left over in your mind

Don't ask me - I'm depraved
Dad would have told you
But he never cared
Don't ask me - I'm insane
Maybe I have answers to your pain?

Why ask me, not your mom?
She'd never loved you, is that why?

Pictures misunderstood
Remembrance of abuse
Recorded, causing pain
Inner toxic waste

Don't ask me - I'm insane
I don't have answers to your pain
Don't ask me 'cause in my mind
My own nightmares dream their own life

Don't ask me
Deep in your mind
Your own abilities
Dream their own time
Track Name: Egos Of Myself
EGOS OF MYSELF

Turned agains each other
Worlds that disagree
Hidden in one body, enemies

Looking through the same eyes
Egos that deny
To live the same life
Withought one mind

My visions, so different
So twisted, unreal...
This voice, from the distance
So strange, my own...
Someone slowely, takes over my soul

War of intensity
Powers of their needs
Locked up in one person
Two personalities

Deathless - not alive
Neverending greed
Biwildered by desires
Someone else in me

Looking through the same eyes
Egos that deny
To live the same life
Withought one mind
Track Name: Accused
ACCUSED

Pale wals, no windows and no doors
To escape from my loneliness
Accused - I can't recal my guilt
Blank mind - no memories

Take it back, your empty words
'Cause it hurts and kills my soul
Kills my pride and makes me feel
So lonely!

No one comes to save me
I can't save myself

Don't tie me up! - All I've wished
My best regards - my fingerprints
On the scene of crime - left behind
In my subconciousness

Take it back, your empty words
'Cause it hurts and kills my soul
Kills my pride and makes me feel
So lonely!

Time will tell why
I don't like myself anymore

I ask myself what I have done
Eywitness hidden in me
Confounded, paralized by fear
Fear, I feel so real

Take it back, your empty words
'Cause it hurts and kills my soul
Kills my pride and makes me feel
So lonely!
Track Name: House Of Frustration* (previously unreleased)
HOUSE OF FRUSTRATION

I've gotten lost in this world somewhere far away
Buried alive under pile of dirt away from myself
Away from myself, away from myself

Lost in the house of frustration
I don't cry myself to sleep
No more sorrow to feed my depression
I forgot my obsession of guilt

It's quiet here and the pain is gone, but I'm still burning...

Lost in the house of frustration
I'm alone under darkened sky
Clouds that were my emotions
Fly away

Waiting still when the roots slowly reach my head
I watch them grow, getting strong, creeping through my brain

It's peaceful here and it won't be long
When I turn to dust...to dust

Lost in the house of frustration
I'm alone under darkened sky
Clouds that were my emotions
Fly away

Drifting away with empty star
I watch myself bleeding
And I know my blood won't quench
This never ending thirst
Track Name: Cycles Of The Sphere
CYCLES OF THE SPHERE

We're just dreaming in infinity
Locked up in towers of programmed reality
My names only change
Again and again

Time is an illusion, it does not exist
Repetitious lies - cycles of the sphere

One way road, endless tunnel
Infinite light ahead of me
Beyond the fear there is desire
That leads me through, lets me exist

By mistake of creation
I'm trapped
Someone's error
Has put me in this place

I'm a part of the never ending circle
My dying does not mean the end

Locked in my tower I start once again
To create sand castles destroyed by the rain

My names only change
Again and again

I'm a part of the never ending circle
My dying does not mean the end
Track Name: Denial
DENIAL

Through the glass of mirror I can see so far
My face is reversed, so is my heart
My thoughts turned around
I no longer care
Right before...I hit the ground

Sealed in time, picture of mine
Now left behind, I crossed that line

Time going backwards, reveals the past
Which seems like the future in the mirror's glass
Looking down from here I can see the sky
And I know all the answers before I ask why?

What matters so much without any meaning
What has been forgotten but was always there
Almost left behind without any feelings
Always awake - my self denial

Sealed in time, picture of mine
Now left behind, I crossed that line

Crossing that line is like falling down
Down to the ground, or am I flying?

Falling down...